Sick to the bone

Stasi prison April 22, 1986

I’ve been sick as a dog.

Started day before yesterday.

No idea what’s wrong with me though.

There are no interrogations, no appointments, nothing.

Just me in solitary confinement all alone with 2 slices of lard bread for a meal.

Woke with fever several times during the night, the whole body is aking and shaking all day.

It can’t be the food.

It’s horrible but I’m used to it by now.

Can’t be the mental stress with the fever and the shaking.

Asked the guard for help.

They’re ignoring me.

Quiet outside.

Is this in response to my threats?

Is this trying to send a message?

Is this Lt. Kulas way to say hello?

I have no energy at all.

Sitting up let’s the room spin.

Nightmares and hallucinations all day.

Is this how it all ends?

Is this how they will show me my place?

Is this my 'bus ride’ that they reserved for me? 

*Testimony -> Start. This blog entry is part of a linear narrated testimony of the contemporary witness Jens Thieme who was imprisoned 1985-1986 as a political prisoner in various GDR prisons by the GDR Ministry of State Security. Stasi prison, Stasi jail, Stasi detention.